It takes courage to show up and hang tight
As I write this I am running on 4 hours of sleep, entering 30 weeks of pregnancy, wearing highlighter in hopes of it distracting people from the dark circles under my eyes. Oh and there’s the part where I have a toddler who just doesn’t wanna potty train, I still work a 9-5, I have a husband to cheer on as he discovers his own career path and dreams, I have this business I am trying to get off the ground after my little man goes to bed, and then there’s that pile of laundry I’ve rewashed 3 times because I keep forgetting to put them in the dryer.
I bet you’re familiar with this too!
You have dreams you want to accomplish, but dinner still has to be made. When the baby gets sick you can’t just NOT tend to them and well, that laundry I keep talking about never ends!
So what does all of this have to do with courage?
Because it takes courage to show up after kiddos go to bed and not just watch TV. It takes courage to hang on in the moments when all you want to do is give up because you ask yourself is this even worth it?
But it is!
The other night I had a this great plan of how I was going to be super productive after almost a week of my son being sick. I hadn’t had a chance to work on anything for almost a week so I was super pumped!
Let me tell you that didn’t happen because not only did my husband get sick that night but my little one ended up with a tummy ache and the only thing that would console him was mommy’s arms - if even that.
So I sat there and cried, hopeless about my progress and devastated that I had yet failed again.
I told myself over and over in my head, “I quit! This is it!”
My feverish husband reaches over and tells me, “Speak life. Say out loud “I’m getting these planners done.” I’m sure he said other inspirational quotes to encourage me, none of which I wanted to hear by the way. But I’m glad he did.
Yes, I cried that night. But the next morning I showed up. I showed up regardless of my lack of progress, regardless of how I felt I hung on tight.
That takes courage.
What are you facing today? What keeps you encouraged in the midst of discouragement?
”Consider it pure joy, brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.” James 1:2-3